Mesiras Nefesh Has Always Been A Part Of Us, As Have The Holtzbergs HY”D Dedicated To The Innocent Terror-Victims Of Mumbai, India

What exactly is ‘Mesiras Nefesh’? I know ‘Sacrificing Your Life for Hashem’. But what does it really mean ‘giving up your life’? I’m only a 14 year-old boy, born in 1994. Thank G-d I wasn’t alive in the times of the Crusades or the infamous Holocaust. So I can’t understand as well what Mesiras Nefesh really is. Unfortunately, in view of the recent events, I think I now know what it means. Now, I never personally knew the Holtzbergs, like my sister Pesha Leah did. But, yet, it all affected me very deeply. I guess it’s because we are all brothers and sisters. I guess everyone had some Mesiras Nefesh when they heard the news. So, really, Mesiras Nefesh is not just giving up your physical bodies for Hashem, like Rabbi Gavriel and Rivkie did. Also, to a certain extent, giving up your emotional body, as well as your desires, I guess. That is also true Mesiras Nefesh. That is living for Hashem!

Living With Mesiras Nefesh

If I would ask you what Mesiras Nefesh means, you’d probably say ‘giving up your life for Hashem’. Right? Well you are right, but it’s really more than that. Mesiras Nefesh can also mean giving up your desires. What do I mean, you ask? Well, if for example, you want to oh… go to a basketball game. But you know it’s wrong. Yet you really want to go. What can you do? You could, maybe, leave early, or go outside and learn during the halftime, or whatever. That’s also Mesiras Nefesh. You’re sacrificing your desires.


There once was a sheperd, who also had Mesiras Nefesh, in this aspect. His name was Akiva. One day, he saw a rock that had a hole drilled into it. When he enquired about it, he was told that the water dripping on it, made a hole. If water can penetrate a rock, he thought to himself. Why can’t torah penetrate my head? So giving up all worldly desires, he then studied torah, became Rabbi Akiva, and had many students. That was also Mesiras Nefesh.

Physically Mesiras Nefesh

As everyone knows, Mesiras Nefesh means giving up your life for Hashem, literally. Like the Kedoshim in Mumbai did. Unfortunately, there were many other times in our history, where people gave up their lives. For example, the infamous holocaust. Millions of Jews were killed, in order to sanctify the name of Hashem. They were Mesiras Nefesh with their complete physical body.

There is one time in history though, that I want to talk about. This is the story of The Ten Martyrs (The עשרה הרוגי מלכות).

The day the Bais Hamikdosh was destroyed, the first one was killed. His name was Rabbi Shimon ben Gamliel. He was the father of Rabbi Yehudah the Nosi (prince). Later, Rabbi Yishmoel ben Elisha, the Cohen Gadol (the High Priest). Sixty years following the destruction, Rabbi Akiva, the same one I talked about earlier, was killed. His was the worst. The Romans tore off his skin with tons of iron combs. Thirteen years passed. The other seven, were then killed in horrible ways. Some were burnt alive; some had their tongue cut off, while one was stabbed with 300 iron laces. Their names were: Rabbi Yehudah ben Bava, Rabbi Chanina ben Tradion, Rabbi Yeshavav the sofer (scribe), and Rabbi Elazar ben Dama. There was also, Rabbi Chanina ben Chakinai, and Rabbi Chutzpith the Translator. Last of all, Rabbi Elazar ben Shamua. He was the greatest genius of his time. He also bor the title ‘Best of the Sages’. Rabbi Yehudah the Nosi was his student.
Now, some, replace Rabbi Chanina ben Chakinai, Rabbi Elazar ben Dama, and Rabbi Elazar ben Shamua with Rabbi Yehudah the Baker, Ben Azzai, and Rabbi Tarfon. But, the first opinion is more reasonable. That is the story of the Ten Martyrs.
So now, hopefully, all of us, including myself, understand a bit more about Mesiras Nefesh, and what it means to us as Jews. Just like ה' avenged the blood of the Ten Martyrs, so too, He will avenge the blood of Rabbi Gavriel and Rivkie, along with the other innocent terror victims of Mumbai. There are many things being done in honor of the Kedoshim, including ‘Mitzvos for Mumbai’. I hope that by writing this essay, I too have fulfilled a portion in this mitzvah.

May Hashem avenge the blood of all those who died על קידוש ה' (Sanctifying Hashem’s Name), in these tragic events. Along with those who perished in our entire history, now! אמן!